In Between

Today I had a drm that I'm walking between two tents/camps separated by large white sheets, in this little space stepping on peoples limbs through the sheets, I was walking all alone between two worlds. The reason being (of course!) that I am running/or evading  the police - but not the modern kind, instead more of a French gendarme. And finally I drift into a dark cartoon - yes its really hard for me to recall my dreams now after years of not recalling them, but it was just so strange to be in a world of cartoons where inevitably there's one very dark character, a devil if you will.   I will try to recall tomorrow's dream :)

Re-emerging with an invitation.

I have a love and hate relationship with my dreams. I have come to love my dreams as they are, and I just cherish the experience of having them. My hate comes from my dreams being so gory and scary most of the time - they have to do with bloody, nasty, death related, violent things. Very rarely its a happy one, but today I just want to re-commit to having my dreams, accepting them as they are and to reassure my psyche that "it's OK". Because I really do prefer having them in my life vs having a dark dream-less night. And this is what happens when I get too scared, even scream in my sleep: whenever I get too scared, I will just stop dreaming altogether for a few weeks. I freak myself out in my dreams, true. But at the same time it is like watching horror movies every night for free. They are super fascinating and at times, really enjoyable to "watch". So starting today I will again "document my dreams" into this dream diary. I now tend to wake up every night around 2 oclock, and it takes a little bit of time to go back to sleep. I find that annoying. I tried an herbal remedy from Amazon but it didn't help - it had melatonin in it, if I recall right.
So here's to a New Year 2019 and new dreams to come :)

Lemonade for Telenbaum

Ok so I had a dream that Jerry Seinfeld and a very old person/friend of his  named Telenbaum came to visit my house. The old guy asks for a lemonade and my whole dream becomes about making a lemonade. I open fridge, and go through tons of various aluminum-wrapped packets seeking for a "lime powder". I tell myself that the formula for lemonade is lemon juice, sugar and a pinch of lime. Instead I mix like a mad scientist various powders in various cups. One contains green tea powder. It's quite viscous. Finally I find something acceptable and give the glass (which had a face on it) to Telenbaum. He tries it and immediately rejects it, handing it back to me.

I start dreaming again

Hello! After a long battle with sleep disorder, I am now sleeping again. I thought I would start posting again to encourage my dreaming :) Yesterday, I dreamt that I had a birthday. Invited many people but suddenly there was honey dripping from my ceiling. I just remember that I left my guests and went on to try different clothes. I kept trying on different colorful outfits until I picked a hooded outfit... Which is kind of unusual.

I hope to post more dreams soon! I am feeling calmer as of late so I am quite hopeful. Of course it would also help if I went to bed at the same time each day, so I will try that too. Good night world, hello dreams!!!!...

Snakes

Today and second day in the row I dream of snakes - room filled with snakes trying to attack me - which is pretty horrible. 

Murders, terrors, oh my!

I had a dream I was an oracle and was solving a murder. I keep getting visions about a black man who killed his wife. There was a train track I followed which led me to the sea. At sea he killed her by hitting her on the head. There were other people on the trip - she was a teacher, they were all teachers. He held everyone at gunpoint when the storm started. I saw them all drown. And I saw an octopus in the depths of the sea. As oracle I got chills from the terror of the murder.
Second Dream I had was that there was someone that was tracking me down and I was afraid they were coming for me. I asked my Dad - Are you sure you closed the door? He said yes.
Third dream I had was about me and my boyfriend having a trip to Ukraine. I showed him the school I went to. Only instead of one school now there were several schools. Then I went to check our mailbox. There were many letters, and they were all from me or from my mom. Then a lady asked, did we bring any flowers ? I said no, we gotta go get some.
There was a fourth , short dream, and it was about apartment hunting. My mom said she had a hidden house and we all went to it...strangely it was a small cute house in the midst of skyscrapers.

A dead girl (JonBenet)

That is so weird that I dreamt about the dead beauty queen, JonBenet, as she was alive. After I saw her, I saw a labyrinth of bushes , walking in the bushes, and seeing dead body in a dumpster. Then I saw a fox, I came up to it and pet it and scratched under its chin.