I have a love and hate relationship with my dreams. I have come to love my dreams as they are, and I just cherish the experience of having them. My hate comes from my dreams being so gory and scary most of the time - they have to do with bloody, nasty, death related, violent things. Very rarely its a happy one, but today I just want to re-commit to having my dreams, accepting them as they are and to reassure my psyche that "it's OK". Because I really do prefer having them in my life vs having a dark dream-less night. And this is what happens when I get too scared, even scream in my sleep: whenever I get too scared, I will just stop dreaming altogether for a few weeks. I freak myself out in my dreams, true. But at the same time it is like watching horror movies every night for free. They are super fascinating and at times, really enjoyable to "watch". So starting today I will again "document my dreams" into this dream diary. I now tend to wake up every night around 2 oclock, and it takes a little bit of time to go back to sleep. I find that annoying. I tried an herbal remedy from Amazon but it didn't help - it had melatonin in it, if I recall right.
So here's to a New Year 2019 and new dreams to come :)
